Months of transition, loss and numbness have come to a head. It manifests itself in the form of nausea, shortness of breath and almost uncontrollable crying. The constant characteristic of parenthood is the requirement to be unselfish at all times. Even when you are falling apart yourself. I let her see a little of it, I let her see me reach out to God for help. Then she will know that it is ok to be broken...and that we are not in control.